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its cool go home dont text me…say you have homework then go on facebook…post pictures of half naked girls and practically deny i exist…get numbers from other girls on tumblr and try to deny it….lie straight to my face when you promised you wouldnt…make me feel inferior…take down my self esteem…don’t build it up…abuse me…reject me…take me for granted…say you don’t even know why you love me….then why are you here??

so were messing around making grilled cheese and you turn around with and “somehow i still love you.” with the most serious and depressing voice ive ever heard….how do you think that makes me feel??? you don’t even know why you love me?? and you wonder why i don’t believe you when you say i love you…hmmmm its just so hard to fathom isn’t it??? get mad if i don’t kiss you but when i try to make it a good kiss you pull away and say you have to go, don’t even wait til i get in my house just speed away haha oh yeah…

best relationship ever…

“im done with saying i love you”

hmmm good to know you’ve given up. then again its probably because i don’t believe it when you say it anyway. but whats a girl to do when you say shit and don’t doanything to back it up? i call you to say i love you and goodnight because the phone got disconnected and what do i get? “im trying to go to sleep.” then you get mad when i get mad because you say that when im just trying to say i love you and goodnight so you can go to bed. but hey whatever right? i just hate being rejected every time i try to show you some kind of affection, but since you’ve given up too maybe now you know how i feel…

why is it sooo hard for you to show me love??? maybe you should leave and let me move on. so maybe someone will come along who wants my affection and wants my love all the time, not when its convenient to them…

so yeah, i think im done too…

i guess this means we don’t love each other anymore?

ha i don’t know, you decide

because my decisions never matter anyway.

shootfr0mthehip:

toungelikeelectric:

you make it so hard for me to prove my inner points to myself. you make it so hard for me to want to stick to something with you. i wanna be there i really do, but its really hard when we don’t seem to be there for each other, if that makes any sense haha you make me not wanna text you then i do, and it wasn’t even worth it, but i don’t learn…and is it so hard to call me once in a while?? and when i ask you to saying ohmygod doesn’t make me want to talk to you…it just pisses me off…

the other week i read these texts from this couple. now before you hear this you have to know the back story…okay so this couple has been together for a while, but the girl is constantly cheating on the guy, but he still stays with her no matter what she does….

okay so i read one of there conversations, and it went something like this…

:”love you hubby”

:love you too wifey”

:i wish you would call me

so i can hear your voice

it would make my day”

just that little bit that i read got me thinking, it is so crazy that she can sleep around and still have a guy as amazing as that, i can be as faithful as no other and STILL not get that kind of unconditional love…what do i need to do to deserve that? is it so hard to show someone you love them? to not lie to their face? to act like you care? to show them you want to be with them? to want to hear their voice? is that so hard? i honestly dont think so, i try to do those things all the time, but when you constantly get rejected by the one you love, i guess it gets a little tiring…

maybe its just me, but even though i’ve been with you for a while i still get excited to see you’ve texted me, i still want to pick up my phone and text you back to continue our conversation, i still hold out for that one text that shows some kind of hint that you care, that you even want to talk to me…but it never comes…and im disappointed again…unfortunately for me my hope isn’t crushed easily, so everyday, everytime its the same thing over and over. hopes up…crushed down…maybe im blinded by my love for you…but i dont think i see your love anymore, and it shouldnt be that hard to show or see if its really there….